One Chance Upon

I have never been very open talking about my love life, but right now I felt that by posting this I'm writing down my part and parcels of life. Moments that can't be turned. Since it's my personal space , so why not?

I admit that I have been through a couple of relationships, 3 I would say. I must say every relationships have different stories , different experience because all humans ain't the same. But each of the relationships have make me grown in one way or another. 

I admit that I'm a very good girlfriend, definitely not the easy dealing ones as I feel I have very strong characters and outspoken. Not that I do not have good points , I think I do have some ,but I should leave it unsaid , as the good will only be speak by the others by acknowledging in their eyes.

I'm really thankful that I was given one chance upon you. I'm referring to my current relationship. It has never been so real. I make a choice to sit on the roller coaster ride, but my decision has never felt so right. We have been 16 months together and I'm glad our love feels as strong as ever.

Honestly , many said we came from different world, they actually meant having totally different characters and I agree. But love have makes us compromised and having different characters doesn't seems bad as of now. It really added vibrant colours and new experiences into our relationship!

I have never done fishing in my life and yet you love fishing and felt fishing is in your bloodline. Because of the different playfulness and character , I fished (at times ya, please don't think highly of me) , you start to splurge on different food and cafe  (he isn't picky about food at all , while I do ) , we swim , we ran , we see each other getting our dirving license and be daring enough to be the first passenger. All of the above mention may seems mundane and same as what other couple does , but trust me you really have to experience yourself. But of course ,we do had harsh quarrel. 

But what amaze me was , we didn't give up despite many rough patches we chance upon on. Honestly , giving up does cross my mind , I did said it but thankfully he's always hold my hands tightly and not let me go. Even though I said that I was giving up , but I'm actually a very stubborn lady , I didn't want to give up this relationship at all , just that at that point of time ...I did it . SORRY!

During the dating period , we shared a lot of experience of what happened in our past relationship. Why it ended ? What did our partners did that leads us to end the relationship ? What we did wrong on our past relationship ? The partners good and bad points and the list goes on. I promised myself that I would learnt my mistakes and be a better partner , best friend , lover for you as I wouldn't want this relationship to end. 

I'm sorry to always think that I gave you more than you gave me , I did not realised till one of the quarrel to told me that and awaken me. To be honest , you really gave me a lot , give in a lot. I realised that when girls do something , after awhile they would say it to their partner . But guys are so different , they do it but they said nothing at all. What he did ? Let me tell you :

~I fell asleep while you were busy with your games, but when I was awake , I saw the fan was blowing towards my direction instead of yours. 

~I fall sick on our graduation trip with friends , you took care of me , fed me , pack my luggage nicely  , ran to search for clinic and finds me taxi while what I did was stayed at the hotel lobby to rest. 

~When I am hungry in the middle of the night , I texted you and after awhile you told me to open the door to collect my Macdonal supper.

~While we werre rushing our final year project , during the sleepless night , you buy me morning breakfast so that I have energy to complete my work . You picked me up at 6am even though you are rushing your project too , so that I save my money on cab and able to rest at your car. 

~When I am craving for food, we would drove me to the specific place that I said and satisfied my cravings. 

~I said I wanted to watch this and that movie , though you always acted like you didn't hear nor care , but I always get to watch it in the end. 

~Even though you are tired after a day of work or fishing , you always cook for me , making sure I eat and be full. You even pick me up and send me home . 

The list can go on and on , I did not forget and I remember it heart by heart. You are a good man , it's just that you don't realised . Who doesn't have bad habit or nasty temper ? All of us does ! But as long as we communicate and change everything gonna be alright in the end. 

I really cherish you and our relationship a lot! 

Army has make me cherish our time spend together , even if it's just 5 mins phone call I'm really contented! Not just words could explain how much I love you , but hang in there , army just gonna get tougher and our love must be stronger. I'm sure we will overcome it all! Thank you for what you have done , all that you have done . I am thankful that we were assigned to the same class for just that one day in polytechnic to make this all begins. Lastly, I love you , I hope this post can keep you going and also trained hard in army. For the aims you told me , I really hope you can sustain and achieved it , remember "MIND OVER BODY" . Always rooting and here for you to rely on. I will be two steps behind ready.

Two Hear one Soul : 

Who's the guy? Look at the pictures below!

  

To travel is to live

Hello, I'm back to this personal space of mine.

This time I'm going to share about my graduation trip to Taiwan. It's my first time travelling on my own , with my friends and of course with my love.

It took about Four and a half hours to reach Taoyuan Airport and of course all of us couldn't contain our excitement. 

After we landed at Taoyuan, we met our driver which will drive us to CingJing located at Taiwan Nantou and it cost us another four hours ride again!! 

Though the ride is tiring , but I must say it's worthwhile. While travelling to my villa , I could already enjoy the view, Star villa is the place where I stayed for 3D2N

I'm just gonna give a brief on what I have done over at CingJing , on the first day we went to Carton king to have our meal . I must say they are really creative as everything is made out of carton, chairs , drink holder and many more . However the food is just normal or maybe I'm used to food that I ate in Singapore. The next morning we woke up at 4am to take a ride up to the mountain top to gaze at stars and watch the sun rise. To me it's the highlight of the whole trip . I always love to gaze at stars and it's hard to have the sky full of stars in Singapore. What's more all the stars are being blocked by the high-rise building. Then we went up to HeHuangShan to watch the sunrise. It's the first time watching sunrise with my darling and I must say the view is splendid and it's super cold about 3 to 4 degrees and all of course are only wearing jacket. It's very memorable as I feel that I wouldn't be able to experience such coldness and to have a second look on such view ever again. Here are some pictures.

 On our way to gaze at stars & sunrise! Our groggy look! 

 It was so cold and all we can do is hug and give each other warm!

We also went to Green Green Grassland (QingQing Cao Yuan) to take a horse ride and to feed the sheep. Overall I must say it's an great experience as people over there are really helpful and friendly. What's more the view for my villa and the villa I stayed is beyond my expectation. Lastly, the weather is cooling about 18 degrees on the day and 12 degrees at night. Finally I got my check-list tick as CingJing is somewhere I always wanted to visit .

We then took the high speed train from TaiChung to Taipei and stayed at Rainbow hotel which is located at Ximending . One of the famous shopping place in Taipei. Of course we visited Taipei 101 > ShiLin Ye Shi > Dan Shui > Wu Fen Pu and many more . I must say I'm only missing greenmilk tea and the fried chicken at Shilin as most of the food are not to my liking. I have been to Taipei before and hence the second visit seems to be average , what's more I fall real sick during the last day! I felt I didn't shop enough and the weather was very humid ! It was only the last day when we went to the airport it was back to 18 degrees ! (Cries)

Overall I'm still thankful that during this trip we looked out for each other. We had a lot of fun and epic moments and definitely you people like spamming photos! But the photos really serve good memories and we can carry this memories and experience with us for our live. 

I'm also thankful that each of you took care of me when I was seriously ill. Vomiting day to night . You guys are willing to carry an extra jacket just for me and also carries the vomit bag! I'm most thankful for is my boyfriend Jordon as he have to be so busy because of me. He packed my luggage nicely , feeds me , gave me medicine , making sure that I'm feeling alright time to time. B, thank you , though I was sick and busy resting , I'm really thankful for the things you did for me and really appreciate it. I know I am able to rely on you since I'm away from my parents and I felt real safe in your arms. Gonna side track a bit apart from this trip , I know we been on rough patches these days. We seems like we are walking to the end of the road but I'm glad we are willing to try and to fixed things and trying hard to make a three point turn and work hard towards future again. I really pray we will go thru this rough patches and make our way thru . I love you!

Next up , HuaHin and BKK here I come! (shall only post when I have the feel to type , but stay tune hehe)

Entering The Adult Stage

I must say that every student dream is to graduate when we are studying. We always wished we could quickly get over PSLE , O Level's , Diploma and many more. Time really flies and when you study and have fun. I must say we must really cherished those times. Of course being an adult does not mean it will be bad. Surely more responsibility , more spending power and the list goes on. 

However it's entering the stage of an adult I find it tough. I'm sure in Singapore , grades is almost everything. What we have chosen to study in ITE or Poly may not be the ideal courses that we wanted to study or strive in for our near future. So the courses that we are studying are mostly the stepping stones for students to get their certs.  I'm sure what I've mention does not imply to everybody ,  but definitely me.

"So What's Next?"

Yes , I'm real lost once i'm are done with school and while waiting for graduation. What's Next ? I asked myself. I felt that i'm not well equipped with skills to enter the society .  I gave myself a couple months to relaxed and decide but I really couldn't make a decision. 

Why? Why couldn't I make a decision?

I'm sure we all knows that employee are still focusing on certs. Yes I'm sure that we still can survive without a cert and earn big bucks by running a business maybe ? But for me I feel I should at least get a degree cert as my back support , just in case . (Yea, typical Singaporean) 

Got to admit that I did not achieved good grades to enter the local university. Private university are really costly and no CPF or any grants . 

I'm so stressed out to do part time or full time studies . 

Pros of full time studies : 

• Making more friends
• Friends are hardworking and study
• They will contribute to project work
• They motivates me to study 

Cons of full time studies :

• I'm unable to pay the school fees!!!
• If I take loan , I'll be in debt and would not able to buy a house to build a family !!

Pros of Part time studies :

• Able to pay my school fees.
• Able to accumulate CPF and having a chance to buy house and build a family.

Cons of Part time studies :

• Having to study on sat and it's my bf booked out day! Only day to spent time with him :(
• It will be real tiring for me as I have to work and manage my studies at the same time. Not sure if I could cope. 

I'M SURE I'M A OVER THINKER !

I felt really stressed out as I'm worried about the school fees as I'm unable to pay if I go for full time studies. While I'm afraid that I could not manage my studies if I have to work full time. I know I haven't been a studious person for my whole life. 

I'm worried that being so busy , I wouldn't have sufficient time for my love. I know he will be busy but weekend is his only free time but I will be wasting his precious 3 hours on his rest day. I'm afraid slowly we don't see the same way , having different thinking and starts to drift apart. I'm afraid that because I chose this path and what we have planned out would be disrupted and be gone. I'm afraid of losing you in the process of achieving something . I want you to know this is OUR plan and not my plan. 

But I'm glad we work things out over the phone and reassured each other. I'm sure it will be real tough for you and not easy for me as well but I really hope we could hold on and really work hard for our future life. 

I know I worried way too much over this and that. I know my dad asked me to study full time so it wouldn't be so hard on me and told me he could handle the fees. But I wouldn't want that as there's still others fees for him to pay. It will be stressful for him and he is not young . I could feel all of your love and you guys are right , IT'S ME . Ultimately I'm the one doing it and facing it all. Its gonna be real real hard but please hang on to me and let me hang on to you. Give me your support and I'm sure I'm determine enough to fight it all.

I want to find and give myself a place in the world and making myself useful and not feel useless. I will find my way and walks a different way. I'm sure after all the wind and rain there will be a brand new day for me and us! Lastly, just some motivational quotes to motivate myself and keeps me going ! HAHAHAHA 

2015?

2014 has been a real roller coaster ride , the tears I shed for numerous things but of course eventually I still pick myself up from the bits of pieces and smile . At the back of 2014 has been real good for me but not this Start of 2015. First day and feels like a piece of shit day..  not sure of how to share my thoughts or feeling . But shall just end here, just wanted to vent somewhere.