Friday, October 3, 2014

Feelings

Haven't been updating for a long time and decided to start on it because I guess it's time to talk to myself instead of blabbering long messages which might be irritating . 
Started on my internship and yeah the pay is real low , but I guess that the company I am working under it's fine for me. So many things have been haunting and pestering me lately which I wouldn't mention one by one . But particularly I'm dedicating this to you . I know what I have mention tonight  will hurt/haunts/stress you deep down .  I know you have tried your best and definitely only I can feel and see it , I'm sorry that I have to make you go thought this thinking that you will never be enough not perfect .  But  it's actually sufficient and I really afraid that you would stop trying and give up. I feel real useless and I really not sure of what to do and I can't find a win-win situation. I know you haven't felt good these few days  as well and you actually do feel unfair and keep all problems to yourself . I want you to know that as much as you are here for me being my pillar of strength , I am  also behind you , supporting you , being your pillar of strength as well.  Maybe you may find me repaying but I just wanted to make sure we do communicate well and also clear up every misunderstanding or unhappiness. 

Honestly , there are many things I am thankful for  , but. I just feel I am not very expressive (neither do you ) but maybe writing helps. We may not be the best but we are trying hard. I really hope that we have the heart to make it through and we won't give up so easily . There are still tons of things we wish to complete together I hope we can do it . I really hope I can put a smile on your face instead of being the burden to drag you down.  Let pray and hope everything will go smoothly on us and  yep I think for now this shall be all  ðŸ˜˜ 

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